Now, a 34-year-old woman I can't help but think I've tested the water more than a few times. I've been able to beat the statistics, seeing that this is my sixth pregnancy. My anxiety level is at an all-time high. I can't wait to have this baby outside of my body. Not just so I can hold her and love her but because of the fear of the unknown. It's crippling to think about, I can sit in my mind and go over scenarios and cry over them each time....